Glory and praise to God today, tomorrow and always. AMEN. God is perfect in all things and He makes no mistakes.

In the past I did many things that were not according to the will of God. I was raised in a circle where I saw violence, alcohol, drugs etc.

I was raised a rebel. When I came to the age of 12 I already wanted to live alone because I thought that I already was a woman ready to do what I wanted. My twin sister and I had many problems with my mom. We moved to the house of my dad and we thought that we were going to have much freedom and that we were going to be able to do whatever we wanted.

When my sister and I were only 13 years old I went to bed with a 19 year old boy. And I went astray completely. I left the house and walked like a vagabond in the streets doing whatever I wanted to do. But I suffered a great deal. I was so ignorant and I that thought that I knew it all. What I gained myself with that was the disapproval by all my family and by many persons that surrounded me. But the ignorance was so big that I did not care.

In spite of all the things that I did God always was with me. When I walked alone at night in the streets there God was with me. When I went to the bars there God was. In all my steps He was there and He protected me. God is the only one that really deals with the filth of us because we are very uncleam with all the things that we do.

I got myself well addicted to many classes of drugs, alcoholic and one thing brings about another. My past was disastrous but the consolation that I have is that it is the past and because of that past I am the woman that I am today. By the grace of my God.

God made a change in my life in the year 2000 when I moved to Marion, Alabama. I was pregnant. It was my fourth pregnancy. I have 3 precious children that still are in Puerto Rico. I abandoned them because by then my desires were stronger than the love of a mother and I left them and later I did not have the right to claim them. And what for? With the life that I led I was not capable to take care of them as they deserved and at that time I did not value the beautiful gift of being a mother.

Okay, yes there were many people that God put in my way to show me His ways and yes they did it but not at that time but at the time when God wanted to. They planted seeds in me that did not grow in the moment but they grew in their proper time. Because of that I say that God is perfect in all his things and that He does not make mistakes.

Okay, when I moved over to Alabama the last man with which I was that did not serve God was the father of my twins Anantha and Reddrick. I married to him at age 24. There God began to change my life. It was a slow process but already I was feeling the differences in me. But the devil was as close to me as is God. And he always sought the way to make collapse everything that God had put in me.

After my twins were born, I began to smoke again, to drink and smoke marihuana, but believe me, it no longer was the same. It smoked for smoking because I did not feel the same sensation any more. When I drank neither and hey I had been crazy with alcohol. And when I smoked marihuana I felt horrible. Definitely it was not the same thing any more.

I went through a lot of situations with the father of my twins, that finally made me decide to leave. In april 2000 my God opened the doors and I left with my children without knowing much English and without family. God was and is my only refuge. I went to a shelter in Selma, Alabama where I presently live.

From then on my life changed for ever. Glory Haleluyah. At the time I went to the shelter a coloured woman named Lilly Fields worked there. That woman was a servant of God. One night Lilly prayed for all the girls in the shelter, I remember that we formed a circle. When Lilly finished to pray she addressed me and another girl and told us "get ready The Lord has something for you and you". We felt so happy and I believed those words.

I told Lilly what my former life was and that my twins were not my only children etc. She was very obliging with me and she exhorted me to seek God. Lilly is very special in my life. I thank her for her prayers for me. She helped me to be free forever.

Since then my life started to function normally. God blessed me and my children with an apartment. My first home for me. I do not have to beg to nobody anymore for a place to stay. Never again I will be a recollected one like I was.

Lilly took me to the church where I still attend until now and there I had the opportunity to meet a marvelous man that respects me and values me like I am, to whom my past does not matter and that my children recognize like their true father. This is Lilly's brother. God blessed me with a spiritual Christian family for all of Lilly's family believe in the living God. Now I have a good job.

All my dreams to learn, progress and be someone in life my God granted them to me. I am no more a parasite like I was before. Now I am of help to many and many have recognized the triumphs that I have realized in my life including some of my family. Still there are some that do not believe and have doubts about me. But what does it matter, what matters to me is that God changed my life and still goes on transforming it. And each triumph that I have I dedicate to Him. Another beautiful thing that I did was to have the opportunity to graduate me this year with the GED and well the things that I could not do in Puerto Rico, God gave me the opportunity to do them here.

I ask my God that He take care of my other small ones and that some day He gives me the opportunity to see my children and my biggest surprise would be that the persons that have them in these moments have changed their lives and that they do not keep me grudge for what happened in the past. Now I am free. God has blessed me with good health for me and my children that now on January 19, 2003 are going to celebrate 3 years of age and I 28 years.

When the scribes and the pharisees wanted to stone the prostitute Jesus told them "the one that is free of sin let him throw the first stone". Nobody could do it because there is no saint in this world. Jesus told her "neither I condemn you, go and do not sin any more". Jesus does not look in the same way in which we look at ourselves. We like to judge and we do not see a future in persons but God does. Therefore at that same moment when Jesus told that woman "go and do not sin any more", her life changed forever. She had the chance to be in the very presence of our creator face to face. The same thing He did in my life and in that of millions. He looked at our future and because of Him we are here.

Recently I was in a car accident with my promised one and my small ones and it was a true miracle. We saved ourselves by the grace of our Lord Jesus Crist. The car in which we went, a pick up from 86, overturned with all of us inside after somebody ignored a traffic light. The blow was so hard that we turned in the truck some three times and we ended upside down. The miracle was that nothing really serious happened to us neither the children suffered injuries. It was a miracle. Since that same moment I understood that God is the one that has control of life and death and that no matter what situation we are going through, on Him depends if we survive or not. I fear him much because He is God.

This is my testimony in short and I hope in the Lord Jesus that it serves someone to help him or her believe in God and that there positively is hope no matter what we are or what we have been before. Trust in God with all your heart. He will straighten your ways. AMEN.

With love and affection.